We can’t sell our marital home now after the inspection came back and that sale was justifiably cancelled.

While our house sits empty and rotting after years of neglect because he cared only to plug into his computer all day,  now leading us to have to sell the house under his mandate of “as is” (he told the professionals that he’s not interested in any repairs and our divorce decree requires agreement for any work that costs over $500) my wasband’s priority in life is to announce the stream arrival of his favorite younger parasocial pick-me, oops I mean”friend”…

He’s subscribed for 27 months and pays for gift subscriptions to acquire additional parasocial pick-me “friends” in order to convince himself and others that he is the consummate “Nice Guy” who everyone thinks is great despite what I, the woman who was in a relationship with him since 2008, actually knows from lived experience and trauma.

They know the mask of a so-called “nice”, generous, funny (always at another’s expense) guy.

I know the fussy, tyrannical monster who couldn’t tolerate a single thing, even sound, whether from my existence or of his dog Ollie’s existence and communication, to then justify verbal abuse with “I’m frustrated!”, “I’m just frustrated!”… again, at me for existing and at Ollie for demand barking for his attention as he sat staring at his computer for hours every day, ignoring the stainless steel barbecue ignored and rotting outside, the leaks into the house from a failing old roof, ignoring the cracks in our floors and our marriage (yet expecting me to change to whatever Stepford wife robot level to be pushed into a closet until needed again to service him while he sits staring at his computer, participating in streams with younger women convincing them that “it’s all crazy wife’s fault!” as if he is some paragon of virtue while he ignores the physical world around him, physical people around him, even the animal he professes to love (on his terms, which isn’t actual love), all while pretending and spending money to appear to be the one “good man” in this world to faces and voices on a virtual screen.

Oh and let’s not forget his emotional affair with a married 29 year old Finnish mother who he met on this and another streamer, who he left the house for in order to call on Discord, which I witnessed happening as I sat at his computer desk looking through their discord chat reading of his emotional investment in her while I was called “cunt” and “bitch” at home. She left twitch and discord in the days after I confronted them on their chat. He then felt justified to cry over her, telling me that he hated me and that I ruined his life.

But sure, it’s all my fault.